Thursday, November 18, 2004

Rest Stop

At mile marker 39 I reach what I have longed for, what has driven me - a rest stop. No, not one filled with games, companionship, riches, fame; instead this one has the literal meaning - a rest stop.
My journey is not over, as it will go on for eternity (Praise God). God has led me, saved me, conformed me, put me through, what I heard for the first time yesterday, the 'eye of the needle', and I have come out more whole and healed than ever before in my life.
To finally have had the strength to stand up to an unhealthy situation, one that, during the majority of my journey so far, I would have just stayed in. To stand up and say, 'No, I will not accept this treatment; no, I will not accept that this is as good as it gets, no, I will not accept this as God's will' no, I will not continue to let you try to control and manipulate me; no, no, no.'
To have finally taken care of my health, mental, emotional and physical, for the first time in my life.
To finally accept love from people, to accept that the fact that I am actually lovable.
To rest
To rest in God's arms
To trust him to take care of me, to never forsake me
At last


Blogger Twyla said...

What a beautiful post. Very poetic. It brought tears to my eyes. It is wonderful to see what a lovely work He is doing in your life. He promised us peace. True peace. And He is faithful.

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